“A dark and lonely situation“Nick Kyrgios admitted to having gone through particularly dark times in recent years as he battled the depression brought on by the crushing pace of the ATP Tour.”I don’t think people understand how lonely tennis can be“, he said on Sunday in an interview with Sunday Telegraph de Sydney.
“You are alone in the field. You can’t really talk to anyone. You have to find the solution on your own. I struggled with this aspect“, explains the 25-year-old player, familiar with the algarades on the court. His behavior at the Cincinnati Masters in August 2019 earned him a fine of $ 113,000, which then led him to qualify the ATP as organization “corrupt“before retracting.
“I remember waking up in Shanghai a year ago, it was 4 pm and I was still in bed with the curtains closed. I didn’t want to see the light of day“, describes the current 45th world, saying to have been”seriously depressed“at times in the past.
I don’t live and breathe tennis
“I felt like no one wanted to know me as a person, that I was just seen as the tennis player to use me. I didn’t feel able to trust anyone. It was a lonely dark place, summarizes Kyrgios. A lot of people put pressure on me, I put a lot of pressure on myself. I lost all joy in playing and I was getting out of control.”
“I got depressed because of what I thought I should be“, assures the native of Canberra, who chose not to take part this year neither in the US Open nor in Roland Garros because of the pandemic of Covid-19. Kyrgios has also questioned some of his colleagues including world No.1 Novak Djokovic, accused of not taking the situation seriously enough.
He took advantage of this break to get involved in fundraising for victims of the deadly bushfires of last summer in Australia as well as in his foundation for underprivileged children: “I really miss it (being on the track). But I don’t live and breathe tennis. There are other things that I like to do.”